Monday, June 14, 2004

A Lifetime Decision

Since no one comes to here, I thought I might write something rather personal today...

Have you ever come to a point in your life where you've got to make the decision that might affect the rest of your life. Ok, ok, maybe not the rest, but at least for the next few years. Perhaps by then you might still have a chance to mend things up if it turn out sour. Perhaps too by then the emotional state will change forever, and so does your perception about life.

For the first time, I have found use for ex bf. :o)

We had a rather long chat tonite. Up till now, I have been troubled by a certain matters, and tonite he has been able to give me the suggestions that really touch my heart. He thinks I should move out and stay with Mark when Mark returns in July.

When I asked him what do I do then as Mark return to UK a year later,
He said "Go with him. Work there while he study and when he graduate he will appreciate what you've done for him throughout the years."

I asked, what if he didn't turn out to be someone I expected?
He said, you must have faith then. Things don't last forever, it just comes and goes. He doesn't look successful now, but he shall be one as the right opportunity strikes.

When I ask, what if we start to fight there?
He said, then don't fight. Accept each other the way they are.

I asked again, what if the life there is hard?
He said, you are young and you shall be able to thrive through these hardships. Comfort life here is not good in bringing out the best of you.

And then I felt so touched in my heart, like god has spoke through his mouth. Tears then filled my eyes.

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